Starting over

I am not a writer, I am not creative, I am not good at expressing ideas, emotions, or thoughts.  I was told, start blogging maybe that might help you vent.  Venting, now that is a novel idea.  I don't know if I even know how to vent yet.  I am in a place right now that I don't even know how I feel about things.  I am 31 years old and in a place I never wanted to be nor imagined.  I am married, but my marriage has failed, so we are now seperated and we have a four year old son to share.  I don't even know how to be alone but yet I want to be.  I love my husband but yet I don't.  I want him around, but yet I don't.  I know its going to be better for both of us to seperate, we might just be better friends and parents than if we stayed together.  I just don't know where my life is going to head now, I thought I already knew what my life was going to be like.